I never blog anymore but since my best friend is one of the last people on earth who is not on facebook, I wanted to show her some of our adventures. I also kind of wanted to document the whole experience. It has been an interesting time for our family. I look at these pictures of all the fun things we've been doing and I think, "Why am I not having fun?" I will try not to start complaining (I only seem to blog when I am lamenting my troubles) and I am trying really hard to be positive. I'm not sure why I'm not enjoying this time. I would venture to guess that the biggest reason is that I have had MONO since before I moved here. I was sick for 2 weeks and went to the doctor's twice before they finally diagnosed me. I have felt pretty awful the whole time I've been here. I was doing a little better for a few weeks and then I got a cold, followed by a sinus infection, that has aggravated all the mono symptoms and made me miserable again. So, I will blame it on that and not on the fact that maybe I am a big baby who hates change and uncertainty and being away from my friends and family. I guess my sisters got all the tough and adventurous DNA--(one has lived in Russia/Ukraine the other has lived and travelled everywhere) and I got left with wuss DNA because I can't even hack it in Boise, Idaho!
Boise is actually a great place. It has all the stores and restaurants a girl could want, everything to do is within a 15 minute drive, it is clean, the parks and museums are amazing, even my apartment is fine.
Our ward has been very friendly and welcoming. They included Gavin in cub scouts right away and it turns out that my Bishop is my second cousin! It's just hard to get very involved or make friends when I am staying such a short time.
I think that's the other thing besides the mono that is difficult. I feel so unsettled here. I was here for a few weeks, then back in Utah for a few weeks, then back here for a few weeks, and it's just been too much disruption for my kids. 2 months is neither vacation or home and my kids are feeling it.
I have learned a lot about myself these last few weeks. (Mostly that I am a huge wimp.) I am taking some of these challenges and trying to overcome them and become a better person, and hopefully a better Mom. You just never know what life might require of you. A few months in Boise is not what I would classify as a HUGE trial or anything, yet it is working me over a bit. Live and learn and grow, I guess!
It has definitely made me appreciate home even more. I usually complain about my house being too small, but after living in an apartment, I see it VERY differently. I love my home. I love my own bed. I LOVE my backyard and the play place where I can kick the kids out to when they are driving me crazy during summer break. I love my wonderful neighbors. And it turns out I even really love primary! They did not release me from my calling in the Primary presidency while I have been in Boise, so I will go back to it when I get home. I miss it more than I ever expected to.
So, in summation, let me make it clear that in no way is my experience a reflection on Boise. I have no complaints about the area. We have done about everything we can do to make the most of it. Someday, when I'm looking back I hope I will realize that I might've had some fun in there somewhere.
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I'm so glad that Boise is being better than expected! I sure wish we could have visited each other when we were there.....there is bound to be another time when we can squeeze in a visit right - we're headed to Utah next summer for a family reunion, maybe then!
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