Therapy

The last few days I have been thinking, okay obsessing, about something. It is starting to hurt my brain and hurt my heart. The more I obsess, the worse it seems to feel, and there is no easy or obvious solution. I thought about blogging about my "issue" in order to receive validation and support from all my girlfriends. I'm such a talker, I could just talk and talk about the same thing and rehash it a million different ways, but I've ultimately decided that I have to find a way to STOP obsessing, and hopefully stop hurting.

So, I've decided that I need to distract my brain. I do feel the need to have some kind of talk therapy, to cope with my overwhelming emotions, but I've got to approach it from a different angle. I'm going to spend a little time musing , so here goes. . .
I thought about "counting my blessings" and decided even that was a little too much to handle. So, I'm going to talk about random things I love, you know, like raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens, that sort of thing:
-Cherry Coke from Will's Pit Stop--I have tried just about every Cherry coke fountain drink in all of Utah County. I know exactly which gas stations have Cherry Coke. I have been a connosieur since high school, and Will's Pit Stop on University Ave has the best stuff.
-Taking trips to the dump. I just completely love getting rid of crap! It astounds me how much stuff we accumulate. My husband hangs on to the weirdest stuff. I just love cleaning up the yard, the garage, the storage and then just dumping it into a giant pile at the local landfill. It always makes me so full of gratitude that some people are willing to be garbage men and run the landfill. It really is such an integral part of modern society!
-Makeovers, especially with a dramatic change to my hairstyle!
-My husband's perfect eyebrows
-My kids' fake laughs--of course their genuine laughter is beautiful, but I love when they really ham it up just to humor me!
-Walking into my Mom's house--it always feels like home, as soon as I walk through the door, I feel like I can exhale for a moment, & dump some of my burdens on someone else a little.
-Good TV shows on DVD--just watching episode after episode for a few days straight.
-Songs that remind me of my days as a Dance Club Queen. Janey tries to get me to dance now, but I just feel so old and goofy. I'll be telling my children (and my husband) for years to come, "I used to be known for what a great dancer I was, I even won contests. I promise, I used to be so cool. "
-Sobbing, really letting go and letting it out. (I cry a lot, but I usually try to hold back and make it stop quickly.)
-Laughter through tears (that's from Steel Magnolias), such a girl thing. Men look at that and think we're schizophrenic!
-Tulips. . .I tried to grow some in my own yard and the deer ate them all as soon as they bloomed, it broke my heart.
-Compliments on my appearance. I mean, I love any kind of compliments, but the ones that appease my vanity are really delicious! As someone who has always felt uglier than my sisters, and my friends, it just thrills me to hear anything that implies that I'm pretty, sexy, or stylish! Pathetic, I know.
-Making out with my husband. Such a rarity! Sometimes I miss the days of courtship when we couldn't get enough of each other and we made out for hours.
-My kids accomplishing a task by themself for the first time. They are so proud!
-Actually doing those things on the "really-should-do" list, like exercising and reading my scriptures!

I could go on and on. I feel so much better already. It has been a fun distraction. For those of you who are reading, share one of your "favorite things" with me, it is therapeutic for me and you!